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That's enough to confirm one thing.
Jiang Jiuling Sanba Yingcheng would not have fallen to this state.
Jiang Cheng confessed his feelings because he was arrogant and had been rejected from the beginning, at least twice. He said it was just a momentary impulse, a moment of being saved and then losing his mind. But no matter how much he was reminded, he didn't understand and forced himself to confess on the third time.
The girl, who always complained about herself, didn't realize that being able to confess successfully meant Jiang Cheng was willing, or even if she did realize it, it wouldn't matter.
The final answer has been reached: it was Raiden Mei who caused Jiangcheng's problems.
Just like in the beginning, when she was eroded by Honkai energy in order to help Raiden Mei.
You're trying to help me, but I can't help you. Not only can I not help you, but I've dragged you into this mess from beginning to end. It's like you reached out to me from a quagmire, but instead of getting out, I pulled you down with me—it was this very fact that made Raiden Mei tremble with despair.
me……
What kind of jinx am I?
Why didn't they realize it until the very end?
Why haven't I noticed this before? I always think about the future when I spend more time with Kiana in Jiangcheng. Why haven't I found any problems even after being rejected so many times?
He could no longer control his body. It was as if even the depths of his soul were crying out in despair. The power he once held so firmly in his grasp was now spreading and destroying his body. His flesh was paralyzed, his bones seemed about to break from the stimulation, and his thoughts and brain were self-destructing under extreme stimulation.
It's all over, it ...
—Deep within my mind, a desperate scream was emanating from within.
It was as if a talkative myna bird was circling the girl, proclaiming the inevitable truth, its dry, rough voice awkwardly and ridiculously recounting the approach of death.
Her thoughts, will, and even personality were suffocated by this sudden disaster; everything that constituted Raiden Mei was crushed so easily.
Click!
Something inside me has shattered.
Her slender fingertips lifted gently, and her ten fingers interlaced, heading straight for the delicate, white, and excessively long swan neck.
Only when the suffocating feeling of almost dying came over him could he catch his breath briefly in the ocean through physical pain and endless mental torment.
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Ling*meng1MinglSan【2Linqi》Mastercba……
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PS: The first Honkai, the second Honkai, the global Honkai caused by the arrival of the Herrscher of the Void, and even the Eleventh Herrscher's advancement to a false god... countless events related to these events have led Jiang Cheng to conclude that if Otto doesn't die, he can forget about living a normal life in this world; everyone will be humiliated and raped by him.
Teammates are trampled on and insulted, and even being a dog won't bring peace of mind, like Cecilia.
The enemy will be insulted in the most shameless way.
For example, dropping bombs on cities.
Even seemingly unrelated conflicts between ordinary people on the street can be affected by Otto's antics, such as the Great Collapse or the False God...
Falling from the perspective of God into a collapsing world, everything that was once a source of pride has become a disaster that Jiangcheng is in for.
Surely no one here thinks that Jiang Cheng, this ordinary person who transmigrated here, is being overly cautious?
Chapter 91 Liking is Liking
True suffocation.
My body was struggling, my chest heaving violently.
He snatched a tiny bit of air from his throat, which was almost constricted to a negligible size.
Her slender hands had somehow already gripped her fair, long neck—the girl could even hear the muffled, painful groans emanating from her own neck bones.
The full-length mirrors in the training room clearly reflected the posture at this moment—the body, struggling naturally due to self-harm, looked ridiculous. A pair of eyes that were originally contracted rolled upwards, and the red lips and teeth could also be seen. The whole person was twisted together because of the double pain, and the blood rushing to the face due to suffocation made it even more comical.
This is the last vestige of the will to survive.
Ability that every living thing naturally possesses.
Having already experienced too much despair and sorrow, the body will instinctively seek a glimmer of hope in despair, even if it's just to hold on for a moment.
Just like self-harm by people with mental illness, it is essentially a way to share the burden physically, and to some extent alleviate the pain from the mind.
This is not a good thing. Just as a person who has completely decided to commit suicide will feel fear the moment they decide to jump off a cliff, the conflict between their emotions and inner sorrow at this moment will only make them more painful.
perhaps……
Dying here would be a better choice.
That way, we wouldn't have to face the reality that follows.
Jiangcheng will definitely be able to live a better life on his own, without having to worry about my interference or being dragged into the mire by me.
—If only Herrschers could be strangled.
When she regained consciousness, her slender, soft fingertips not only did not leave that delicate neck, but instead intensified their grip.
On her fair and delicate skin, as smooth as a freshly peeled lychee, appeared red marks that would make anyone feel sorry for her. The overlapping finger marks symbolized the owner's brutality. Her eyes, which were slightly turned up, were filled with only sorrow, and she was indifferent to the torture she was being subjected to.
The last breaths, accompanied by a muffled wail, surged from her throat, a punishment that seemed to be inflicted upon her, a death sentence. The urgent breaths emanating from her cherry-colored lips were the girl's pitiful and pathetic struggle—until, just before the very last moment, they were forcibly gripped—by a large, external hand.
Jiang Cheng, who couldn't find any opening to comfort her no matter what he did, simply gave up on being gentle and forcefully pressed down on the girl's wrist, leaving rough red marks on her fair skin.
"If you keep saying that, I'll have to use some physical means to force you to wake up!"
"—Raiden Mei!"
Only in this way could he barely get the girl's gaze, who was almost suffocating in despair.
Jiang Cheng practically spat out the words through clenched teeth, “I could have left, I could have stayed out of trouble, that’s true, but I didn’t leave, and that was my own choice… at least now it’s my own choice.”
Jiang Cheng could clearly see from those eyes, which were already so miserable they couldn't be more miserable—that back then you kept refusing, and it was clearly my persistence that thwarted your plans, cutting the plane in half with my Herrscher form, and not letting you leave at all. He could only change his mind while cursing inwardly.
Why do I remember so clearly? A high achiever like you should get lost and never show your face in front of me again.
An ordinary person like me can't possibly tolerate you!
The key point is that at that time he really had no choice but to accept the fact that he could not deny it.
From the moment Mei caught up with him, he realized that Mei and Kiana could never become as close friends as they were in the original story. The past could never be made up for. Therefore, after filling in the gap that Mei's love for him was not due to the suspension bridge reaction, he chose to agree.
Even Jiang Cheng himself wasn't sure if he would have agreed to the offer if he had had the chance to escape back then.
If I were an ordinary person like myself, who neither dared nor wanted to take on any trouble, I would probably have run away much faster back then.
“But none of that matters.” Jiang Cheng even used his mechanical arm to forcefully pry the girl’s hands open. His voice was sharp and sarcastic for the first time, urgent like a rooster crowing. “Anyway, I have to fight Otto now. I’ve already caught Otto’s eye. He will keep an eye on me no matter what. Even if you commit suicide, it will only mean that my fighting power will decrease by one. So if you want to commit suicide, you have to finish off Otto first and let me come down safely.”
It wasn't until the words were almost threatening that Raiden Mei finally snapped out of her daze, and her hands, which had been so strong that they were on the verge of collapse and wanting to commit suicide, relaxed once again.
yes……
The future has been shattered.
He had already dragged Jiangcheng into a quagmire.
If I were to choose to leave like this, it would be escapism, and I cannot be so selfish.
Even if I really can't forgive myself, even if I have to do it this way, I should at least send Jiangcheng away first.
It was only when he realized the truth—that his neck, already bearing rough and glaring red marks—that he finally breathed again. Another breath of air was exhaled into his lungs, and his pupils, which had almost left their future in self-destruction, regained their luster. Jiang Cheng's face appeared clearly before his eyes once more.
He is talking.
"—Do you think I would say such things?"
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She was almost unconscious due to lack of oxygen—at least her brain, which thought it needed oxygen, had not yet recovered. A blinding white light would still occasionally illuminate her vision, and Jiang Cheng's sudden and dramatic words made it impossible for her to think clearly, causing a sudden, computer-like shutdown—her vision went completely blank.
When he came to his senses again, the somewhat sharp and sarcastic attitude that Jiang Cheng had shown before him, just like the words he had just spoken, and the calculating attitude of those who were calculating their own interests, had vanished without a trace.
"What are you thinking? Do I have to use you to get you to move? Do I have to whip you before you'll take a single step forward?"
anger……
Only anger can describe the expression on my face at this moment.
The only comparable or similar posture, even in the girl's memory, was when she faced those who bullied her.
But at this moment, there was no time for the girl to think about what she had in common with those bullies—her collar was grabbed forcefully the next moment, and even her gaze was lifted up.
It is Jiangcheng.
The girl immediately realized the source of the problem.
Jiang Cheng grabbed her collar, grabbing the World Serpent training uniform with its specially made, loose collar.
He is still looking at himself. "For the first time, I feel that the ability to empathize is such an incredible thing... because I can understand you now, just like I can understand you who would have chosen to jump off a building to commit suicide in the original timeline. Empathizing with you like this has made me a pervert too."
"I'm sorry..." Mei apologized instinctively.
But this only made Jiang Cheng grip the collar even tighter.
His gaze into those purple eyes was so intense it felt like he was going to shove them into his own. "Now that I've agreed, now that I'm your lover, now that I've taken your virginity, I will never regret it! Never, ever! Now listen to me carefully!!"
"Stop blaming yourself for everything. This thing only works on scumbags. Only those scumbags like to see this. I'll only..."
“Only…”
"I can only feel sorry for them!"
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What is Jiang Cheng's expression at this moment?
Angry?
Do not……
Until this moment, until the superficial anger subsided and dissipated, and the momentum had been exhausted.
Only the girl forced to look directly into those eyes could notice the truth in those pupils—the essence of that burning cherry blossom was clearly sadness, a deep sorrow like a flower falling onto a lake, blown by the wind but unable to float, not getting wet, so it could only quietly turn into ashes, with a faint glimmer appearing in the pupils.
he……
Is he crying?
He didn't cry even when he was ravaged by the terrifying corruption of Honkai and on the verge of death...
cry?
The girl, realizing all this, could hardly believe it.
But rather than being shocked, the body reacted even faster—the fingers were raised again.
Amid Jiang Cheng's wary gaze, filled with worry about repeating the same mistakes, he saw the girl's index finger form a hook as she gently wiped away the tears from the corner of his eyes.
"Did you cry?" His expression collapsed instantly, his eyes wide open. "I'm sorry, I really couldn't hold back anymore... After all, this is the first time in my life that someone has understood me like this. In the past, when I did something wrong or made a choice, even if I was forced by others, I would only swallow the bitter pill alone. If I told others, I would only be ridiculed."
"Ah... Being understood is such a dreamlike experience, I guess it can only happen in dreams. But why is it that we can understand each other, you are willing to consider my feelings, and I have always empathized with you from your perspective, but it has to end like this?"
This is something I could never have dreamed of before.
Even dreams can't be this sweet.
It even made him start to think that the world had become a better place.
I was starting to accept you, so why are you making things so bad now, turning us into enemies?
"Hey, Mei."
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—I can't answer that.
How can someone trapped in the inferiority complex following bullying possibly answer higher-level, more sophisticated questions?
Perhaps she could have answered them before, perhaps that confident Thunder Queen could have answered them, but now she has become someone who even contemplates suicide—just like in the original story, the girl who jumped off the building to escape can no longer answer these questions, can no longer face these predicaments that she has been hiding from.
This isn't an answer for her either. When you know someone can't answer a question but still ask, the person you're actually asking is never that person.
Jiang Cheng was still watching intently, without moving an inch.