Toyokawa Shoko doesn't want to become a witch

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If she hadn't saved Aine and given her a ride to the station, she wouldn't have met the real light, and she wouldn't have discovered that the light that had always been by her side was just a figment of her imagination.

There would be no Nirvana, no desperate struggle to survive to avoid being killed by Yushina, and none of the subsequent events.

Thinking about it this way, I realized that my first encounter with Aine had actually changed my life.

Xiangzi couldn't help but sigh.

"It's fate."

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"What a damn fate..."

Lixi slumped on the stairs outside the rented room, staring blankly at the flickering streetlight.

It's been like this since last year, and no one has fixed it. It just stands there stupidly, stubbornly keeping its lights on every day, even though it's almost broken.

"...Becoming a witch is the destiny of magical girls, what a load of rubbish."

Hey.

Something was placed on my head.

Lixi skillfully removed the orange-flavored milk jelly from her head, expertly unwrapped the straw, stuck it into the box, and then sucked it in like crazy.

The box quickly became flat.

Hailing, unusually, didn't drink the milk pudding. Instead, she took a can of tasteless soda water, sat down next to Lixi, and pulled the tab.

puff-

Carbon dioxide sprayed out of the can, and Hailing took a sip of soda water.

So this is what it tastes like—a tasteless taste.

“I said,” Li Xi said sullenly, “did you hear what we were saying?”

"Yes, I'll listen from outside," Hailing replied calmly.

"So... you know that."

"Ah."

"When did you know that?"

"Before I met you."

"Didn't you think of telling me?"

“I don’t think it’s time for you to know yet; you’re not ready.”

"I want the truth."

“I thought that if I didn’t have to ask for it, I would feel less guilty.”

"Actually, that's not the case."

"Not at all, I still feel just as bad." Hailing took a swig of soda water. "I'm sorry."

"..."

"..."

"..."

"..."

Have you seen it with your own eyes?

"I've seen it."

"Then... have you ever killed a magical girl who turned into a witch right before your eyes?"

"Yes, I've killed some before I became a witch."

"Oh......"

"Why are you suddenly asking this?"

"I don't know how to go on living." Li Xi lowered her head. "Why don't you kill me before I become a witch?"

The Lost Tale: The Lost Child - Chapter 299 Shiina Tatsuki Creep

Shiina Tatsuki – to be precise, in everyone's eyes, she should be called "Shiina Maki's younger sister".

Maki is Riki's older sister, three years her senior. She is a first-year student majoring in finance at Akihara University, the newly promoted principal of the Akihara University brass band, and the former principal trumpeter of the Akihara Youth Philharmonic Orchestra. She has her own jazz band, ranks first in her grade in terms of overall GPA, and has already obtained an internship at a Fortune 500 company while juggling work and school. Her high school alma mater is Haneoka.

Ruthless, genius, all-rounder, time management master, future elite. This is how everyone who knows Maki describes her.

Li Xi is her younger sister, and everyone describes her as "Maki's younger sister".

Maki's parents have high expectations of her, wanting her to do her best in everything, and Maki lives up to their expectations, doing even better than they ask.

There are no demands on Riki, because Maki is already good enough.

They hoped that Riki could grow up happily, and so did Maki, the older sister, who hoped that her younger sister could grow up under her wings without any pressure.

Riki and Maki attended the same junior high school, Haneoka.

She felt like she was invisible in class. It wasn't that she had a low profile in class; on the contrary, she had a high profile because her older sister was a big celebrity at school. Everyone was proud to know Riki and "Maki's sister," and they liked to swarm around Riki after class.

“Lixi, your sister…” This kind of opening line is the standard phrase that Lixi hears every day.

Lixi spent his three years of junior high school in this kind of atmosphere.

She felt like she was invisible because no one ever treated her as "Shiina Tatsuki".

And just like that, before he knew it, Lixi was already in the third year of junior high school.

Unlike her sister, she wasn't a genius; her grades weren't bad, but they weren't particularly outstanding either. Her parents never discussed her grades, so she didn't care.

Her older sister is the principal of the wind instrument club, but Lixi doesn't know any classical instruments. The only thing she likes is a drum set that has been with her since she was a child.

Playing drums was her only way to vent her emotions. Watching the drumsticks strike the drumhead, listening to the sounds that were either crisp or dull, and sweating profusely, was the only time she could escape her sister's shadow and release her stress.

Yes, even when no one was putting any pressure on Lixi, she felt an immense pressure.

This mountain is called "Shiina Maki", her older sister, a mountain that can never be crossed or even be looked at.

Riki didn't want to live as "Maki's sister"; she wanted people to remember her as "Shiina Riki." But by her third year of junior high, she despairingly realized that nothing she did was in vain.

I have no talent, and no matter what direction I go, I can never catch up with Maki. I don't even have the right to see her back.

You say you'll work hard?

When it comes to hard work, you won't find anyone in Haneoka who works harder than Maki. Even if Riki tries her best to learn from her older sister, she can't match her sister's precise, minute-by-minute schedule.

What time to get up, how long to run in the morning, how long to wash up, how long to eat, how long to go to school... From morning until she closes her eyes at night, Maki has never deviated from the schedule she set for herself.

Lixi tried for a month, but finally gave up in despair.

Just when she was almost disheartened and willingly becoming "Shiina Maki's sister," Kyubey appeared.

"Do you want to surpass your sister? Then make a wish and become a magical girl."

Cupid said that you can make any wish.

Can I make any wish? Even if it's to switch places with my sister and achieve more than her, is that a wish allowed?

The answer I received from Cupid was "No problem".

"really?"

"If you take on the responsibility of being a magical girl and eliminate the witch who is threatening the world."

Lixi swallowed hard and, as if possessed, asked another question.

Why not look for your older sister?

Cupid tilted his head, looked at her with interest for a while with his ruby-like eyes, and spoke slowly.

“Your sister has a very large karma, which should have been her qualification to become a magical girl.”

Cause and effect are the possibilities that a person has in their lifetime.

Maki is a genius among geniuses, and she is destined to become a great person in the future. Naturally, she has many causes and effects.

But why did Kyubey approach Riki instead of Maki?

“However, she is a person with extreme rationality,” Kyubey said. “Besides cause and effect, emotions are also very important in influencing aptitude.”

"Your sister has too little emotion in her personality. Even if she possesses a great deal of causality, she cannot utilize it. It is even more impossible for her to fulfill the mission of a magical girl."

"Why?" Lixi asked.

"If we compare cause and effect to a container containing energy, you can think of it as a 'bucket,' where the size of cause and effect determines the amount of water. Then, emotional power is the medium through which energy is poured out; you can think of it as a 'pipe,' where the thickness of the pipe determines how much water can be drawn from the bucket."

Kyubey selectively answered the previous question, omitting the question of what "the mission of a magical girl" is.

Because Lixi didn't ask.

“Lixi, you are different from your sister. You have a lot of emotional energy and can fully exert the cause and effect you possess. This is the quality you have as a magical girl.”

It is an established fact that Shiina Maki cannot become a magical girl, but Shiina Tatsuki can.

Lixi clearly heard these words, but she never imagined that a rational person would agree to Kyubey's suggestion to wish to become a magical girl.

She naively believed she possessed a greater talent than Maki to become a magical girl, which gave her almost no reason to refuse.

Apart from......

"Make a wish now, what do you want to wish for?"

“I…” Li Xi hesitated.

I want to surpass my older sister, I want to achieve more than her, I want to become more popular than her...

Is that what you wish for?

Really.

Does a dream fulfilled through making a wish truly have meaning? Did she really surpass her sister?

No, there isn't.

She never even had the idea of ​​"surpassing her sister". Her sister was so good to her, how could she possibly have the idea of ​​stepping on her sister?

Shiina Tatsuki's wish from beginning to end was only one thing, and that was—

"I want people to remember the name 'Shiina Tatsuki'."

I want to live as myself.

"I have received your wish."

White light filled Lixi's room.

That night, Riki became a magical girl.

The Tale of the Lost: The Lost Child: Chapter 300 I Don't Want to Hear These Words a Third Time (Part 2)

The day after his wish came true, Lixi found that his presence at school had become more noticeable.

As always, her classmates surrounded her, but now, Lixi would no longer hear the familiar opening line, "Your sister..."

"Lixi, do you know how to play the drums?"

"Lixi, how about we form a band together?"

"Lixi..."

"Lixi~"

Lixi was surrounded by her classmates like a flower stamen surrounded by petals, her eyes filled with a sense of unease and confusion.

My wish came true so easily?

Am I dreaming?

Lixi pinched her cheek hard; it still hurt quite a bit, which proved that what Qiubi said was true—she wasn't dreaming, and her wish had come true.

But... why don't I feel happy at all?

Lixi had lowered her standards several times when making her wish, but even when she lowered it to what she considered the lowest standard—simply wanting others to remember her, not just her sister—such a simple wish, she still didn't feel happy after it came true.