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"Why……"
"why."
"Why!" (The rest of the text appears to be a fragmented collection of characters and phrases, possibly from different sources, and doesn'
Why, after giving me hope, do you have to cruelly take it all away?!
Untrimmed, sharp nails dug into her skin, her pearly teeth biting her lips—Raiden Mei could no longer endure it. Her entire self was finally about to collapse completely. Even the weak and gentle personality she had been forcibly transformed could not withstand a darkness more desperate than despair, a darkness without a shred of hope.
That's just too cruel.
Even the most resilient person could not accept such dramatic ups and downs, with fleeting hope and light being extinguished without hesitation by others.
Especially since—just three minutes ago the girl was still fantasizing about their time together, recalling her previous behavior and her self-righteous thoughts… she looked as ridiculous as a clown.
Looking back now, the joy, the excitement, and the blushing cheeks I felt then seem like a comedy of absurdity!
Being well-behaved and gentle doesn't mean you're completely devoid of emotions. It's precisely because you're not good at expressing yourself and habitually keep everything bottled up inside that when you finally explode, it won't be like other people's simple venting, but rather an irresistible and complete outburst.
Now, at this moment, right now!
Everything that had been accumulated was on the verge of collapse.
Raiden Mei's deep purple eyes gazed at the world, at the boy's body. For the first time, the clear lines and colors were so blurry, and the world that could be easily judged seemed to have lost its reality and become unfamiliar.
They've arrived...
all……
everything……
Cold, painful, burning... incomprehensible energy, catastrophic, reddish-purple patterns are growing and spreading.
Just seeing it is enough to imagine the erosion of pain; even someone who knows nothing about this mark can feel the excruciating pain.
Like being boiled in oil and cooked over a fire, the purple lines swept over my entire body, stimulating my nerves like needles, causing my body to tremble and stiffen instinctively from the pain.
The power that erupted instantly, fueled by anger and fueled by negative emotions, was so intense that even a Herrscher-level body could hardly contain it. The pain was excruciating, as if even the bones were being crushed. Eroded by Honkai energy, he could clearly feel everything inside his body turning into fragments and rotten flesh—truly and completely destroyed.
The girl herself, however, still couldn't find any color in her pupils—those now colorless eyes held only dullness and madness...
"Jiangcheng..."
"Jiangcheng!"
……
"Zila——!!"
Like a machine restarting, the precisely meshing gears creaked and groaned as they turned, and as if bones were being pulled away, the hand that had been lying at the side was raised once more.
In a daze, as if she had touched something, her purplish-red pupils flashed with a dim light for a moment. The lines that had covered her entire body and spread with her self-degradation and the collapse of her will disappeared in an instant—what was revealed once again was her pure white skin, an inhuman perfection without a single flaw or scar.
The Honkai energy, which had already reached the limits of this body and could no longer be contained, was perfectly contained again—Raiden Mei's body underwent a sublimation in a very short time.
The foreign-implanted gem, an object that cannot be perfectly called the Herrscher Core, has now completely integrated into the body—because of this absolutely intolerable occurrence.
The reason for the emergence of the Herrscher from the previous civilization is still unknown and unclear.
However, in this era, negative emotions are the biggest factor in the Herrscher becoming stronger and even emerging.
At this moment, the emotions that erupted in an instant were even stronger than any peak I had experienced when I was bullied and harassed for so long.
In those cherry-colored pupils, in the eyes of the boy standing opposite him, the girl who was expected to be out of control was erupting in a way that was beyond imagination.
It wasn't just a change in the sky.
It wasn't the kind of weather that might change color, as I mentioned this morning.
The foreshadowing laid in advance for Kiana allows the girl to naturally accept the setting of unpredictable weather.
Instead, it could almost be called a new cataclysmic collapse—something that should never have happened even if it was expected. Raiden Mei should never have reacted with such a frenzied state just because she said she was leaving.
This is a scene that even the Thunder Queen could hardly unleash. The Herrscher/Stigmata personality that only appears to a certain extent can never reach it. Only a truly healthy and complete personality can unleash such power.
Purple……
No.
It's hard to describe it as purple anymore; even the tiny, lightning-like arcs have vanished without a trace. The pupils have now turned a decadent, eerie red.
There is still cowardice.
There is still sadness.
I'm still confused...
These fragile emotions were simply swallowed up by a deeper darkness.
These emotions, instantly crushed by other emotions and reduced to the insignificance of sand, are trampled underfoot because they cannot even be sustained.
Her delicate lips curved unhealthily, tearing out a cold arc. The distorted smile proved that something deep inside her had completely broken down, like a leaky faucet dripping water.
……
……
"—Do you want to hurt me?"
The boy, coldly observing everything, only spoke in the very instant the lightning drew near, and he felt the burning sensation as if his remaining limbs were about to break apart—words devoid of any emotion.
Are you going to hurt me?
"Mei."
what……
you!
How dare you utter that name?!
How dare you call me by such an affectionate name?!
Why are you only calling me by such an affectionate name now?
It's only now that you're calling me that, and only now that you're dropping my surname—don't you feel it's too late?!
Those scarlet pupils were filled with nothing but utter madness. Even if he were to kill the boy in front of him with a single blow in the next second, it would not be surprising at all. On the contrary, the energy that had almost changed the sky in an instant was forcibly suppressed within his body in just one moment.
The tender, fair skin was filled with this unimaginably expanding energy. Just by looking directly at it, one could almost see the massive Honkai energy flowing, almost solidified and visible to the naked eye.
If someone were to take measurements at this moment with professional instruments, they would likely see that the Honkai energy carried by the human body has reached a level sufficient to tear apart a country.
However, even with such a high concentration, not a single drop leaked out; the girl, enraged to the extreme, sealed everything inside her body.
The disaster has been averted.
It's at least temporarily over.
The boy could clearly feel his skin, and all the touch and sensations he could feel returned to their original gentleness.
"I know I went too far."
"But don't you feel like you've gone too far?"
"I have clearly said and emphasized this matter many times before."
……
……
This counterattack almost made Raiden Mei lose control again, and she couldn't help but let out a cold laugh.
He loosened his fingers, and the fingertips, encased in armor as ornate as a samurai's helmet, lifted, the sharp gauntlets pointing at the now dimly lit boy—the golden sunset was now mostly obscured by dark clouds, and the face that should have been bathed in sunlight was once again brought back to reality.
It remains as ordinary and mundane as ever.
At this moment, however, a newfound resolve arose within him.
A steadfastness that is not seen in daily life.
It felt like the first time we met, the first time we witnessed him. At that time, he was clearly in so much pain that he was on the verge of collapse, but he still gritted his teeth and worked hard to continue his life and to help himself.
Despite bearing the same, or even more intense, pain he had just experienced, he still did not lose his will to live, nor did he deceive himself.
He seems to have remained unchanged.
Cruel time has shown mercy at this moment.
The words that were being uttered, however, were no longer gentle.
Since you're no longer gentle, then I... having been deceived by you, don't need to be gentle anymore.
The promise, the promise... Have you forgotten all the promises we made? Are you no longer even willing to stay by my side, to be with me?
In the past, no matter how much they looked, they could never get enough of it, even though they carried the burden of social death in this small community if they were discovered—a consequence that people in the Far East should not be able to bear. Their innate nature made them unable to bear the disapproving gazes of others and unable to accept the outcome of being isolated by others.
Even so, she couldn't help but steal glances at the boy's profile, his face... In short, as long as it was his face, she would want to keep looking at it from any angle.
Until now, until this very moment, until the other person tells me with their own words that I'm leaving you.
That calm demeanor turned into anger.
Just looking at it makes me angry.
Just looking at it makes my heart race uncontrollably.
That's why we absolutely cannot allow this abandonment—the ending of being thrown aside by Jiang Cheng.
"I will absolutely not allow you to leave here!"
"Listen carefully."
"—Jiangcheng!"
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Chapter 63 The suspension bridge reaction is only temporary.
Because of the sudden burst of massive Honkai energy—which instantly turned the sky dark and gloomy—Jiangcheng, who truly experienced the possibility of the anticipated plans collapsing at any moment, was now genuinely dissatisfied.
Even as an outsider, he can see the changes in the emotional drama more clearly. At the same time, the boy, who has a strict understanding of his own existence, believes that he is the one who truly understands girls.
Just like Mei almost confessed her feelings to herself after only knowing her for a day.
The current situation is simply an amplified version of that day, a repetitive suspension bridge reaction.
Therefore, addressing psychological issues is essential.
No mercy is needed—
"I've said it so many times, this is just a phase in your life. Sooner or later you'll feel utterly ashamed for not wearing your red scarf now. It's just a temporary setback. Do you really want to be so obsessed with this straw?"
"Raiden Mei, you are no longer a child, nor are you an ordinary person who is powerless. No one can lock you in the toilet and splash water on you now. You are a Herrscher now, a Herrscher who will not provoke even if there are beings stronger than you."
“Really…you really don’t need any more lifelines. You’ve grown to the point where you can live comfortably on your own. You no longer need to hide in your baby cradle.”
"So please stop deceiving yourself, stop thinking that you've fallen for me because of a fleeting feeling. It's just a result of the suspension bridge reaction."
Ahhh...
Suspension bridge reaction.
It's the suspension bridge reaction again.
So all those things I mentioned before, those subtle hints, were just preparation for this rejection?!
Without hesitation, she cut off all the words, not allowing even a single word to enter her ears—the girl, almost driven to madness, simply used the most direct method: waving her hand to physically stop the boy's voice.
I won't listen—this kind of meaning can be easily discerned from actions. Gestures, which have long been mastered, are something that can be understood even before language.
However, Jiangcheng did not accept it.
Just as the girl did not accept his explanation.
He also refused to accept the rejection.
At this moment, he seemed to have lost all fear and worry about the shackles around his neck. It was as if the girl in front of him was not a monster who could take his life with a wave of her hand.
He simply gazed at her, simply looked into her eyes, simply offered his pupils to the girl without hesitation, giving her all his emotions and all his thoughts.
Do you know where I live, how old I am, or what my past was like?
"Love that arises solely out of gratitude, without you knowing anything about it..."