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Perhaps it's because physical closeness can indeed bring the heart closer to some extent.
Jiang Cheng, on the contrary, felt a bit of pity.
—Regarding Yae Sakura.
Even with the tearing pain, it never hurt itself. Its nails would only curl inwards, and even its toes, those ten pearl-like nails, were taut to the extreme. The strength with which it hugged itself was so light, so careful, as if it was worried about making it uncomfortable or unwell.
In the end, when he was so exhausted that he couldn't even lift his fingertips, all the boy could see was—
laugh.
She is laughing.
They are laughing clumsily, they are laughing while bleeding.
The expression on her face was a smile, and it could only be described as a smile. Perhaps that smile was not standard, nor did it resemble the standard of a smile that humans have always had. It was a smile that contained fatigue and pain, and it could not be considered perfect in any way. But just by looking at her expression, one could not describe the feeling in words, and that was all one could know.
The person named Yae Sakura is very happy now.
I'm really, really happy.
When Jiang Cheng saw that face, he even thought he was a bottle of water rolling in a dry desert, wandering in an oasis, while the girl was a stranded traveler on the verge of death—only such a relationship could make them so happy. Only someone who is about to die of thirst would be so overjoyed to see a bottle of water or an oasis.
Don't know what to say.
"Ugh……"
He could only sigh to himself.
He stood still, breathing deeply, trying to regain his strength little by little, temporarily drawing away a tiny bit of energy from the side effects of the drug.
"Sorry……"
The girl, who was on the verge of collapse, was still apologizing.
"There's no need... I already understand."
I have fully understood your thoughts and your love.
Even Jiang Cheng, who was forced into this situation in a despicable way, had to admit that it was indeed a dazzling object.
"You're right. If you're just confessing your feelings, then no matter how many times you repeat it, it won't make any difference. I won't allow it or agree to it because I can't hurt Mei just to avoid hurting you. Having been confessed to once before, I've reached a high enough threshold for this kind of tactic."
"I'm sorry... you can refuse." The girl's voice was distant and weary, like the night wind.
Despite her obvious reluctance, she spoke out with a heavy heart.
This makes it even more heartbreaking.
“I can’t do it anymore. You’ve already forced your way into my life—you’ve forced all your feelings of love on me. You haven’t even given me a chance to pretend I don’t know.”
……
……
Jiang Cheng always felt that he was a half-baked guy, someone who was too ordinary in the eyes of ordinary people.
Neither up nor down.
so so.
They can neither be completely ambitious nor completely give up and become useless.
On a moral level, they cannot be a great person who ignores the opinions of others and wholeheartedly saves others and the world, nor can they be truly heartless and become a villain who can trample on precious things at will.
If he hadn't come into this world, if he hadn't been beaten and his life was in danger, he probably wouldn't have killed as many animals—excluding insects like mosquitoes and flies—in his entire life as he had killed people during this period.
After all, in his previous life, he had only killed one bird by accident. He happened to catch a sparrow on his way to school, put it in his schoolbag, and only found out after school that the bird had suffocated.
Murder was something I never dared to think about in the past, and infidelity was something I never imagined, let alone being forced into infidelity.
It must be admitted that this move was really effective; he really didn't know how to deal with Yae Sakura now.
He could no longer refuse her as he had before taking her virginity.
Even if you know you were being forced.
Just looking at the girl's face, one could see that she was excessively sweet and beautiful, and now she even had a somewhat pitiful pale appearance. Just smelling that fragrant scent against her soft, white skin, especially that touch of red that symbolized innocence...
The words of refusal were stuck on his lips—he just couldn't say them, not a single word.
Even knowing that doing this is wrong, or that it's just being nagging, you still can't deny it or stop it.
If the original conflict was between hurting Yae Sakura—but being able to refuse before it all happened—and hurting Mei, who had already become her lover, then now it's about choosing between hurting, trampling on, and destroying that burning, innocent love between a girl who is already halfway to becoming a lover and who has even given up her virginity, and the girl who is already her lover.
Initially, if we only considered choosing the lesser of two evils, we would choose Mei. But now... we are on the same level.
—I can't do it.
Especially now that Sakura has accepted that she might be rejected.
Sincerity is the ultimate weapon!
Although such sincerity and honesty would only make villains exploit him more thoroughly and ruthlessly, and kick him while he's down after they've used him, without even needing to deceive or think about how to get close, the problem is that Jiang Cheng has never been a complete villain or scumbag.
If one truly seeks only momentary pleasure and intends to exploit others' love and affection like mud, then there are many opportunities for him to be less than virtuous.
Ahhh...
Yae Sakura's soft, moist breath gently brushed against her skin.
The smooth, white skin still gently rubs against the body.
We really need to kill him—kill him even more thoroughly than the initial Honkai invasion.
……
"If you're really in a difficult position, then please just forget about it." The girl's fox ears trembled slightly.
Take a step back voluntarily.
Actively avoid anything that would cause trouble for the teenager.
Jiang Cheng gently closed his eyes, took a deep breath, and asked the question he already knew the answer to—
"If I could do something like this, abandoning you, would you still do it?"
"meeting."
Only here, the girl did not hesitate.
The head fell with a resolute, decisive sound.
But I absolutely do not regret this one thing.
Even knowing it's wrong, I don't regret it.
……
Jiang Cheng was speechless—because the girl's voice was completely truthful.
No skills or techniques for detecting lies are needed; the mere beating of the heart is enough to convey the sincerity and genuine feelings, and the warmth of the body seems to touch the soul.
Perhaps, as she said at the beginning, she didn't have much confidence in confessing her feelings, but after talking to herself for so long, she felt that no matter whether she succeeded or not, she would do something she wouldn't regret.
So what should we do now?
How should we respond?
How should we respond to the trolley problem?
The silver pupils reflected in the girl's beautiful blue eyes were incredibly complex—like a sudden gust of wind in spring, blowing up a sea of cherry blossoms.
It's a chaotic mess. One second you might catch a glimpse of a beautifully blooming, delicate flower, but in the blink of an eye it vanishes, disappearing into the crowd of flowers.
Hesitation, bewilderment, Lingmeng Yinming Qisi Wujiu Sijiu 8... This is what it means to be human.
Didn't you say that yourself?
"Eight...no." Jiang Cheng swallowed the full name that was about to be uttered subconsciously, and looked at the girl with complicated emotions.
"--cherry."
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……
Don't waste any more time, I can't hold on much longer.
Even if Jiang Cheng, an ordinary person, is easy to portray, the twisted quality in his words isn't so simple.
Do you really want Mei to witness all of this? The Herrscher of Thunder would definitely unleash its power again!
Rin no longer had the energy to watch this long, melodramatic drama—mainly because the two of them had dragged it out for so long that Mei was starting to have some doubts.
Otherwise, even if they have been struggling with hatred for 50,000 years, they would still be happy to see genuine emotions.
Of course, the most important reason is that Yae Sakura looks a lot like her older sister; otherwise, it would have been more likely that she would have destroyed everything out of jealousy.
Ok……
I see.
No longer coveting the gaze of youth.
The last sentence brought their conversation to a close.
"Please have a good rest."
The girl named Yae Sakura only saw this moment as she touched her unworthy lover one last time.
You're the one who should be resting! — There's simply no room to say something like that.
As the girl's voice faded, her body, already at its limit and further strained by the side effects of the medication, could no longer sustain the strain.
Even though I still had so much to say, and my mind could still push my body a little harder, at this moment I was overwhelmed by a strange and irresistible drowsiness.
Just as the previous feeling of powerlessness in her body was like a fragile puppet being manipulated at will by the young girl, what she felt at this moment was even more intense than before. She didn't even have the strength to open her mouth, let alone stick out her tongue, and her eyes were inevitably forced to close.
Ahhh...
It's over.
Watching the pink-clad shrine maiden put her clothes back on—Jiang Cheng closed his eyes completely, his body slumping limply, utterly powerless to support him.
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Chapter 102 Raiden Mei Finally Arrives
Is it as I described?
Now that Jiangcheng has fallen into a deep sleep, Ling, who is too lazy to pretend anymore, has begun to communicate without restraint.
[This is the way to deal with someone as indecisive as Jiang Cheng. Even if Mei hadn't been so vehement, Jiang Cheng would probably have continued to hesitate and waver, eventually making a decision when it was too late to change anything.]
Even if you become lovers, you'll eventually break up. If you made the right choice, you won't experience the pain of heartbreak. This way, you avoid endless future troubles and daily regret.
This is good for the individual, but it makes them difficult to approach others. Only the most extreme masochists would dare to embrace someone so unpredictable and prickly.
Do not……
no……
Only at this moment, Yae Sakura, who was barely recovering from her injuries, shook her head and rejected all of Rin's evaluations without hesitation.
"Jiang Cheng... he just suffered a lot. If he had someone who loved him, if he had a normal childhood and a warm past, he would never have turned out like this."
This is something I can empathize with.
This is something I've experienced before.
A painful and desperate past, a childhood devoid of warmth, and a weak heart forcibly shaped by nightmares from childhood to adulthood.
But ah.
Even the weak can be strong.
Even the most incompetent person can get out of the mire.
Just like everything the girl is doing right now—something that can only be described as despicable.
To act as a mistress.
It destroys pure love.