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"I have received so many favors, yet I have hardly played any role; I have simply enjoyed them, and this remains true even now that we are lovers."
"If you can't prove you're good enough for your loved one, then you can't stop better people from being around him."
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"Is it really okay to just wait like this?"
Kiana sat on a bench by the roadside, the streetlights illuminating her silvery hair, which fluttered in the wind like stardust.
It has been quite some time since Mistelin left alone. She and Jiang Cheng strolled through the streets at a leisurely pace, changing locations, but they had not received any news. On the contrary, Jiang Cheng's expression showed a hint of worry in his cherry-colored eyes.
"It's nothing... I guess so..."
The boy is now unable to give a definite answer.
Holding the Jizo-myo-tama, the investigation using the authority could only reveal that they had already left.
Although I don't know why they left, I can roughly guess some things, at least from the faintly noticeable changes in the sky...
Communication is by no means a completely peaceful affair.
perhaps……
It will be more chaotic than I imagine.
Somewhat unexpectedly, this time I wasn't as eager to rush up, probably because I didn't see it directly.
Seeing and hearing are worlds apart, and hearing and feeling are even more worlds apart. People often feel pity for what happens around them, yet they treat the tragedies on the internet as hellish jokes.
"At the very least, we must give her trust, a full trust that will leave her with no worries."
"Don't worry... I'm here with you, aren't I?"
Soft fingertips gently climbed up her shoulder.
The moment you turn your head, you can see those water-blue eyes.
The girl's comforting words followed her like a shadow, and as always, they carried that silly, energetic feeling. Her clenched and waving little fists were like colorful ribbons waving in a cheerleading squad.
“Since Mistelin volunteered for this mission, she must have been prepared. Someone like her is obviously very smart and would never do something stupid on a whim.”
"Raiden Mei is fierce, but she's probably not the kind of person who's completely unreasonable... uh, maybe."
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Even if they say it, it's actually something they can't even confirm themselves, and they can only emphasize it by clenching their fists.
They are all subjective ideas.
But unexpectedly, I wanted to believe and be convinced.
I can't find a reason.
He simply gazed into those azure eyes, simply watching the girl whose nun's habit was billowing in the cold, bright light of the nearby streetlamp, making her seem to glow.
—I want to believe.
Soft strands of hair swayed naturally in the moonlight, and fragments of starlight drifted in the air, like stardust falling gently. A halo of moonlight lingered on her hair and reflected in her eyes.
—Wanting recognition.
Do not……
That's not my opinion.
This obsession, this persistence, this yearning, this desire—it's all reflected in the color of those eyes.
It was so real and so fitting that I unconsciously imprinted that color in my eyes and mistook it for my own.
This is Kiana's.
Unrewriteable.
In that azure blue that seems to reflect the sky, what is actually hidden is the vast sea. When you lower your head, you may even be unconsciously tinged with its colors, and unconsciously cast your gaze into the deepest, most hidden part of the deep sea, into the mysterious and lonely darkness.
They haven't even solved their own problems, they've never received love, yet they still try to replicate the comfort they received in the past, and the faint, veiled love they've been given.
This is really...
…So beautiful it's almost tragic.
My heart felt soft and pliable, spreading outwards. It seemed harmonious, yet something felt missing. It was strange and uncomfortable, full yet incomplete.
As expected, it still hurts a little.
As bystanders, as indifferent people.
Unable to hurt anyone, unable to accept anyone's departure, thus appearing hesitant, yet unable to give up anything can also protect nothing.
Perhaps this is the best choice. Since we cannot be the ones protecting others, we might as well be the ones being protected, letting others make the decisions and then take care of the rest.
"Really..."
It felt like my lungs were filled with too much air.
Every word I uttered was extremely painful.
"There really hasn't been any change at all... They're always trying to change others, scheming against others, and changing the world, but in reality, what hasn't changed at all is..."
It's me...
—I didn’t have a chance to say it.
Words like this.
Such self-pitying, clown-like words, reminiscent of a pretentious intellectual, never even get a chance to be uttered.
His mouth was completely blocked, and the fingertips of his fist, which he had used to cheer himself up, were now pressed against his lips.
——Too close.
Those azure eyes were far too close at that moment.
It was as if you could feel her breath; her flowing hair brushed against her exposed neckline, and her trembling eyelashes, moving with her blinking eyes, revealed subtle changes in the wind.
"There's absolutely no need to change!"
She is making a declaration. (Chun Yin Er Ci Er 20 (7) Temple)
This is the view you see.
The look in those eyes was so serious it was as if they were proclaiming some truth, or giving a sermon of absolute certainty, as if you would definitely regret it later if you didn't listen carefully.
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P.S.: Although it may seem a bit tedious to go around in circles about this kind of thing, and you might not like reading it, I feel that if we want the characters to not become mere supporting roles and to maintain their personalities, we have to write some material.
The idea of having a harem requires either someone like an emperor who doesn't treat others as human beings, or someone who treats them merely as possessions or tools, or someone who must find the most suitable distance through mutual compromise.
Not to mention more people, even two people are equal, so half is taken from the first person, 24 hours becomes 12 hours. Originally, two people could stay together, hugging each other tightly, sitting on the lawn in the night, blowing the wind that would most likely carry weeds, petals and leaves, looking up at the distant moonlight that seemed untouchable. When they wanted to sigh about something, they found that their lover next to them hugged them even tighter.
what……
Why chase after the moon?
The only thing reflected in my eyes at this moment, isn't that girl who only has eyes for me, countless times more beautiful than the lonely and distant moon halo?
But if we add another person, then should we look to the left or the right...? The choice is definitely complicated.
Chapter 155 You said Otto is dead, is that possible?
"You have done the best you could. You accepted the Herrscher, prevented the disaster from continuing, and became the Bishop of Schicksal, the ruler of the world—you, who are ten thousand times more ordinary and unremarkable than me, have accomplished the impossible."
"Even though I hate it, I have to admit that Mei's feelings for you are genuine. That possessiveness is completely real. This love is definitely not some messy thing. Mistelin is also very grateful to you, and also to me...aren't I right here?"
Kiana was so serious, as if she wanted to drill herself into Jiang Cheng's eyes, to give away everything she had through those eyes.
The girl's beautiful eyes held an undisguised intensity, so close that he could feel the touch of her nose. It seemed as if he were about to tear his heart open, revealing its innermost essence.
"Just like you once told me, if you don't believe in yourself, then believe in me who loves you."
"Didn't you say I was great before? Then accept the love of the person you think is great now!"
Jiang Cheng gazed at the pair of eyes, which were as clear as a sunny sky.
It was so urgent that even the water in it seemed to leap up.
In the quiet night, her long hair, blown by the wind, caressed her face and neck. The soft strands of hair swayed naturally in the moonlight, like an extension of the gentle moonlight. The cold lamplight beside her reflected a few glimmers of light in the pale light of this moment.
A halo of moonlight lingered on her hair and reflected in her eyes.
Her soft hair shimmered, as gentle as moonlight.
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Pure and flawless.
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I still remember standing below the podium, looking up at the young man giving his speech in the bright sunlight.
The sunlight is too bright.
It's too bright.
He couldn't even open his eyes, and his voice was extremely muffled. The only way to tell from the uniform applause of the people around him was that the boy was speaking very well and earnestly.
Everyone was echoing the speech, and everyone seemed very serious. The excitement on their faces was genuine; they were truly celebrating the new bishop.
This is certain—the only thing Kiana can be completely sure about is direct shipping.
I have never seen such a grand setting.
I have never witnessed such a magnificent crowd.
When the footsteps of the people came together, their hearts pounded the moment they stepped on the ground. What was once a chaotic scene of gossip, like a million bolts of lightning, suddenly became unified and quiet after the boy clapped his hands. The vibration of the applause was like an earthquake.
Something like this is something you might only see once in your lifetime, but it's so grand that once you see it, you'll never forget it.
Unfortunately, I wasn't really watching it at the time; I was just crying, simply crying.
It wasn't just because the sunlight was too dazzling; even enduring the pain in my eyes, I could only see the light when I looked up. A fleeting glimpse of the boy's deep affection.
And so it is...
Just looking at him makes me want to cry.
She stared wide-eyed, her round, azure pupils unable to stop the tears from streaming down her face.
Don't...don't cry...
Even if you think that way, you can't stop it.
Even biting my lip, I couldn't help but feel a sour taste flowing out.
Even though I was mentally prepared, even though I had rehearsed the scene of our meeting countless times in my mind, I still couldn't help but...
still is……
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Thinking back on it carefully, I realize that I acted really dangerously at that time. Anyone who saw that scene would be scared and worried.
Tears that could not be held back, a trembling body, and a dazed state that made even the voice seem to slow down a thousand times.
It was really embarrassing and miserable.
Because at that time I really didn't think I had a chance.
The already enormous chasm, the gap torn open by not being able to seize the opportunity and catch up like Raiden Mei... When I saw Jiang Cheng standing in the spotlight, giving a speech to the world under the sunlight, I couldn't even touch the light and shadow for a moment, because the huge crowd had almost completely blocked out the sunlight.
Really...
My heart skipped a beat.
At that moment, I truly believed that I would never be able to get back what I had lost in this lifetime.