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Fujiwara Yushi noticed the strangeness in Kazesawa.
"Kaze Sawa, are you feeling unwell? Are you still able to continue the match?"
"I'm fine with it, but I probably won't be able to go to the rehearsal."
"Alright then, but please don't force yourself."
"Ok, I know."
Feng Zejian leaned back on the sofa and closed his eyes.
Two hours passed quickly.
Everyone went to rehearsal, leaving only Feng Zejian in the lounge.
Feng Zejian was already asleep, but even so, he was still in pain.
Not only was he experiencing physical pain, but he was also undergoing physical torment at this moment.
In my dream, I was transported back to Nara Prefecture, and all the past events resurfaced once more.
Feng Zejian watched all of this as an observer.
The tragedy known as Fengzejian actually began from the very beginning.
As the eldest son in the family, Kazesawa was born at the time when Kazesawa Masao's career was on the rise. Kazesawa Masao visited the hospital once when Kazesawa was born.
Once Kazezawa Masao had stabilized, Kazezawa Satsuki was pregnant with Kazezawa Rei.
Masao Kazesawa made up for all the debts he owed Kazesawa Satsuki in the past this time.
This was also the beginning of favoritism.
Feng Zeli was born into a family where everyone doted on her, and Feng Zejian was also instilled by his parents with the idea that older brothers should love and give in to their younger sisters.
As a result, Feng Zeli was naturally loved by the whole family.
Once the scales of love begin to tip, all the love will slowly converge at one point.
The delicious food goes first to the younger sister, and the fun things go first to the younger sister.
The older brother got first place, isn't that what he deserves? The younger sister got tenth place, she's amazing.
Brother, you came in third place. How come you've fallen behind? Sister, you came in twentieth place. What's wrong with you, sister? Did you not sleep well?
In short, it is expected that you will perform well, but if you do not, you will inevitably be scolded and beaten.
But her own sister, whatever she does is right, everything she does is right.
Gradually, his presence in the family diminished.
No one cared about Feng Zejian's situation anymore.
In this distorted family environment, Feng Zejian's mentality has gradually become unbalanced.
It's not that I've given up on myself, but rather that I've started to close myself off and immerse myself in my own world.
In junior high, Feng Zejian was a sunny and positive boy, but by the time he entered high school, he had become a withdrawn shut-in and barely passed high school.
He started to neglect his appearance and stayed home all day, and his sister, with whom he had a good relationship, began to distance herself from him.
But Feng Zejian still remembered his father's words: an older brother should love his younger sister and give in to her.
In a distorted environment, either geniuses or deformities are produced.
When Feng Zejian entered high school, he felt somewhat lost in an unfamiliar environment. He didn't want to integrate into the new circle, or rather, he was no longer able to integrate into the new circle.
Initially encouraged, then ostracized, and finally framed.
Feng Zejian longed for someone to save him, but in the end, he never saw that person.
Was he crushed by being falsely accused of being a pervert? No, that was just a trigger.
Taking sleeping pills was the last bit of courage this tragic young man had to face life.
Feng Zejian wrote his last diary entry, saying something to himself in front of the mirror.
But before Feng Zejian could hear anything, he was woken up.
"Hello, Kazesawa-kun, the match is about to begin."
Feng Zejian looked at the beautiful host who had woken him up.
He stood up, supporting himself on the sofa.
"Well, let's go."
Feng Zejian followed the beautiful host into the studio.
Passing by the affirmative side's stage, I arrived at the negative side's stage and sat down in my seat.
Aoki Sakura stared intently at Kaze Sawa.
Feng Zejian looked away, not daring to meet Aoki Sakura's gaze.
Aoki Sakura rested her cheek on her hand, a sweet smile appearing on her pretty face.
"Feng Zejian, the more conflicted you are, the more I like you. I've been waiting for this day for a long time."
The beautiful host stood in the center of the stage, with many audience members below.
Chapter 305 Inada University vs. Kanazawa High School
The director gave the signal.
The host immediately maintained her professional, sweet smile.
With a sweet voice, the familiar opening remarks began.
"This is TV Tokyo. Welcome to the live broadcast of the National High School Debating Championship Finals. I am your host, Tsubasa Nagasawa."
"Let me first reveal the topic of this final debate: love."
"Love is something that cannot be defined. Some people love passionately, some love humbly, some stay together forever, and some love but cannot be together. Love is a subject that people need to study constantly. There are many ways to express love, and under these various ways of expression, many different kinds of love have emerged."
"Some loves can help people grow, while others can lead them into the abyss. This leads us to today's debate: in love, should we be more rational or more emotional?"
The host, Nagasawa Tsubasa, paused for a moment.
"Now, let's have the affirmative side introduce themselves."
One by one, the members of the Inada University team stood up.
"First speaker for the affirmative side: Aoyama Akie, Department of History, Inada University."
"Second speaker for the affirmative side, Shusaku Hashiguchi from the Department of Geology, Inada University."
"The third speaker for the affirmative side is Koji Shiraishi, a professor of socioeconomics at Inada University."
"The fourth speaker for the affirmative side is Sakura Aoki from the Department of International Languages at Inada University."
Next up was the Kanazawa High School team.
"First speaker for the opposition, Jinze High School Science and Technology Department."
"Second speaker for the opposition, Takeuchi Misae from Kanazawa High School"
"Third speaker for the opposition, Ruri Shinbo from Kanazawa High School."
"Fourth speaker for the opposition, Fengzejian from Jinze High School."
Aoki Sakura looked at Kaze Sawama as he introduced himself, her pretty face beaming.
He thought to himself, "Stop pretending, why aren't you pretending anymore?"
"Everyone is full of energy after hearing the self-introductions from both sides. Today's final is sure to be exceptionally exciting. Now, let's hand the stage over to both sides. The affirmative and negative sides will take turns speaking, with each side having two minutes to speak. After two rounds of alternation, we will begin the free debate session, where each person will have a maximum of five minutes."
The female host stepped aside, and the first speaker for the affirmative side, Aoyama Akie, stood up.
"I think there needs to be more rationality in love. The biggest difference between humans and animals is restraint. You can love someone, but you need to consider whether your love is a burden to the person you love. If your overwhelming love is a pain to you, or too sharp, then love is both honey and a blade."
"Too much sugar will make you bitter, and too sharp a blade will hurt you. So love needs to be restrained, and restraint is based on thinking. It can be understood as loving rationally."
Aoyama Akie sat down.
Polytechnic Hall followed closely behind.
"My opponent's statement was very clever. First, they expressed their own point of view, then they raised the differences between humans and animals, and finally they stated their conclusion, returning to the very beginning: that restraint equals rationality. This conclusion is logically sound in relation to my opponent's theme."
"But the example the other party gave is inappropriate. Too much sugar is bitter, and a blade that is too sharp will hurt both the user and the recipient. We are considering whether love requires more rationality or more emotion. This 'more' is not an extreme, but a delicate balance. This delicate balance is not necessarily a true balance, just like the golden ratio."
"Love is another manifestation of emotional value, and the emotion in emotional value is sensibility. In the process of male-female relationships, there is a classic saying: 'I'm in a relationship, not trying to reason with you.' I think this saying comes more often from women."
"Of course, I don't mean anything by it. I also agree with this statement. Whether a girl is stupid or not, there are some truths that she understands even if you're not her, but she still chooses to be unreasonable. And behind this is a process of demanding emotional value."
"What a girl might be saying is, 'You need to coax me.' It's like 1+1=2, which is an obvious answer, but I want it to equal three, so I think three is the correct answer. For guys, you need to be clear about whether you're doing a problem or in a relationship. If you're doing a problem, then 2 is the correct answer. If you're in a relationship, then three is, or rather, the answer in your partner's mind is the correct answer."
"In conclusion, I think that emotion plays a larger role in love."
After speaking, he sat down in the science and technology hall.
The statement from the science and engineering students was more appropriate.
His example is very apt, and the public will strongly agree with it.
The opposing team's second debater, Shusaku Hashiguchi, picked up the microphone.
"My opponent makes a good point. If I weren't on this side, I would agree with him. But unfortunately, we are on different teams, so we are destined to disagree. Let's continue to expand on the topic raised by my opponent."
"The opposing side just gave a very good example, and their explanation was very comprehensive, but their perspective was only that of a woman. Let's look at it from the man's perspective: are reasoning and compliance actions driven by emotion or reason?"
“I think what you’re doing is wrong. I want to reason with you and make you understand that this is wrong and that this behavior is rational.”
"As for compliance, I know you don't want me to reason with you, I know you won't listen to reason, but because I love you, I choose to comply. I ignore the facts and choose the answer in your heart. I restrain my sense of right and wrong, restrain my desire to correct you, and choose to comply, choose to love you."
"Isn't this a kind of rationality?"
The arena was unusually quiet, but everyone's hearts were churning with excitement. It was brilliant, absolutely brilliant.
This feeling of being evenly matched, going back and forth, is just fantastic.
The second speaker for the opposing side, Mime Takeuchi, took over.
"The speech by our first debater from the Science and Technology Hall made me feel like we had won, but the speech by the opposing debater made me feel that the situation is now evenly matched. My speech is certainly not as reasonable and well-founded as yours, and can only be based on my feelings."
"Just now, the student from the Science and Technology Hall gave an example from a female perspective, while the opposing debater gave an example from a male perspective. Combining the statements of both sides, can I conclude that women are more emotional, while men are more rational? From my perspective, if I want to find out whether there is more rationality or emotion in love, can I represent it by the status and contribution of men and women in love?"
"Of course, I don't mean that girls are necessarily emotional and boys are necessarily rational. Just like most boys like girls, there are also a small number who like other things."
"But that's only a small part; the majority are still normal. That's why I say most girls are emotional and most boys are rational. There shouldn't be any problem with that."
"I also like to read some relationship surveys. In love, women have a higher status than men, and men are more accommodating and tolerant of women in relationships."
Chapter 306 Takeuchi Misae's Obsessive Fan
Miya Takeuchi summarized it.
"When a boy makes concessions to a girl for his feelings, can I understand that reason is giving way to emotion, and emotion is encroaching on the space of reason? In that case, the living space of reason will shrink, so emotion outweighs reason."
That concludes my remarks, thank you.
Miya Takeuchi calmed herself down.
I was a little nervous speaking on my own for the first time.
Miya Takeuchi's angle is novel and gives people a refreshing feeling.
The third speaker for the affirmative side, Koji Shiraishi, picked up the microphone.
"From the girls' perspective and the boys' perspective, the previous three have already said their pieces, so I won't repeat them. First of all, I'm very happy to be able to speak after Takeuchi Misae. Why am I happy? Because I'm your fan. I really, really like you."
"Why am I saying this? Because this is the example I gave, and that example is me. Maybe people think I'm exaggerating, or that I don't really like it. That's because I keep that liking buried deep in my heart."
"As you may know, the opposing team's second speaker is a well-known teenage idol. I became a fan of her about four years ago, when she was still an underground idol. I was fortunate enough to witness her rise from an underground idol to a national idol."
"Just saying that isn't enough to prove anything. I have all of their works and merchandise since their debut, and I write them a love letter every year on their birthday. Of course, I haven't sent the letter out yet, but it's on their birthday."
“I record every ticket stub from every performance, every cheer on stage, and so on with my camera. Not to mention photos, albums, and posters. I often drool over other people’s posters and call them ‘wife’ when I listen to their albums. Without a doubt, I am what other people call a fanatical fan, but that’s all in private. Fanatical doesn’t mean losing your mind.”
"If I didn't say it, people probably wouldn't even imagine how fanatical I can be, but my fanatical behavior can cause trouble for the people I like. Is my idol just an idol? Is my feeling for her just worship?"
"I think everyone knows the answer to this question even if I don't say it."
"What I can do is restrain myself in public and try to act like a normal person. Just like now, when facing my idol, I try to restrain myself and give a verbal rebuttal as an opponent."