Anime Crossover: My Youth Begins with Charlotte

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"It may seem embarrassing, but at least we have better ways now."

"Xia Yan, cheer up! This event is all for you."

Xia Yan looked at everyone present, showing no sign of happiness: "I'm sorry, I may not be suited for this kind of occasion. I just want to be alone."

Everyone was stunned. This time, the protagonist was Xia Yan. If Xia Yan was still unhappy, it meant that they had not found the right method and it was all in vain.

Ram and Chika sensed that Xia Yan was actually somewhat resistant, as if that was his true feeling, but why did it turn out this way?

"She doesn't look well, but what can be done?"

Xia Yan's heart grew colder little by little. He was starting to waver about what he wanted. He didn't know why things had turned out this way, nor did he know what was going on with all these things.

"Yes, I don't even know what I want, and these people probably don't know either. The only thing I need is to find that thing deep inside me, but it's empty. If I want to fill it, that would be good."

Xia Yan looked at everyone present. He didn't know why, but he felt a strong resistance and rejection. Yet, the thought still made him feel a little uncomfortable.

Ram looked at Xia Yan: "If you don't like (the King), then don't think too much about it. You should also know that you can only control your own feelings, and no one else can."

Even Ram herself wasn't entirely sure what would happen, but she still thought it over and decided to be careful. However, if something did happen, there would inevitably be many unpleasant consequences.

"I know, thank you all. There are some things I still hope I can resolve myself, but what seems simple is actually not so simple."

Chapter 163 Xia Yan Begins to Draw

If it's a physical injury, it can be treated with medicine, but if it's a wounded heart, then it's probably not that simple.

"Emotional wounds are the hardest to erase, and we all hope they can heal."

"Many people at this banquet are laughing; they are all happy. Perhaps they are also experiencing pain, but think about it: in this life, whether we are happy or sad, it is all within our own control. Why should people have emotions?"

"No one can say for sure, but at least that's the difference between humans and animals. No matter what, nobody wants it to be this way, but what can we do?"

"Life is a journey of 460 days, and it's still a bit tiring, but what can you do about being so tired?"

Everyone knows that unless there's something else going on, it's best to be careful. Otherwise, to put it simply, you'll trap yourself in your own problems, which outsiders might see as getting stuck in a rut.

"No matter what, we've done our part. Xia Yan, this is what your pain must be like."

Xia Yan was very unhappy, but he had already gone this far and was grateful to everyone. However, he didn't like this kind of occasion, especially in such a lively and noisy place: "Sorry, we really shouldn't hold these kinds of gatherings anymore. It's such a waste."

This is not only wasteful, but also very unpleasant. Naturally, one wants to leave, but is also very unwilling to do so.

"Okay, I understand. I'll try my best to get your opinion in the future, but you should also be clear about what you need."

Ram and Chika both care about him, but this time their idea is a bit ominous. It looks simple, but it's not simple at all. If there's anything that needs to be done, let Xia Yan think it through.

Xia Yan left alone. He was the protagonist of this scene, but the protagonist didn't seem to like it.

Ram would often visit Xia Yan, who still lived alone and seemed to enjoy the quiet.

"Ram, I feel like we've really failed; we can't help Xia Yan."

"No, perhaps we need to give Qianhua some time to figure things out on his own. Otherwise, things might get even more difficult if things continue like this."

"Yes, a mental illness requires a mental cure. But Xia Yan's condition is not too bad, at least it doesn't look as bad as it appears to us."

Ram and Chika also sighed in succession. It has to be said that the problem is huge, but also very annoying.

I will go see him.

When Ram went to see Xia Yan again, she found a painting in Xia Yan's room, which looked like it was painted by Xia Yan himself.

"It seems Xia Yan is not bad. Although his paintings are not very good, at least they can make him happy. However, it's a bit hard to tell what he's drawing."

Ram looked at it closely and felt it was very abstract, but this kind of painting completely revealed his inner world. Perhaps this was Xia Yan's inner world.

"Xia Yan, you're really something. The fact that you've started learning to draw means he's slowly getting better, right?"

"This is my painting, don't ruin it."

I'll be careful.

Seeing that Xia Yan was in good spirits, Ram realized that he had found a way to cope with his emotions. It was truly heartwarming to see him distracted like this.

"No matter what, we'll find a way out. Don't worry about me, I'm fine."

"I know, you're starting to get better too."

Chapter 164 Leaving Alone

Xia Yan's paintings are filled with a sense of oppression, which makes them very unpleasant, and they even give the impression of a suicidal impulse.

Chika also sensed danger this time. He just didn't expect it to turn out like this. Xia Yan used to be so sunny and so likable, but he turned out like this.

"Xia Yan, what's wrong with you?"

Xia Yan didn't say anything. He felt very comfortable. This situation of being alone was exactly what he needed. Otherwise, he wouldn't have kept wanting this situation. It was just that it made him a little irritated again because these people kept coming over.

"Okay, don't overthink it. I'm fine, really fine. Look at you all, always like this, what am I supposed to do?"

No one would do this if they could, but Chika was still a little worried.

"Qianhua, I know you're worried about me, but I also have my own things to do. This is my own business, so you don't need to worry. I'll have my own ideas."

Chika was taken aback, but she understood that if he didn't like doing this, he wouldn't say anything, but if he really wanted to leave, he probably would have left already.

"Alright, alright, let's stop talking about this. We should be going now."

If I leave, I probably don't know when I'll be able to come back. This kind of situation is really making me feel very uncomfortable.

"Don't even mention it. This is the path I chose myself, and I will take responsibility for it. So you should all hold off for now and not worry. For me, these things are my own choices."

Chika understood that Xia Yan was also very stubborn. If Xia Yan chose to walk his own path, he would probably really leave on his own. It was unclear what would happen then, and as things progressed, she would probably be implicated as well.

"Alright then, you should be careful too, otherwise I'll be very worried. And you've probably already sensed it, right? Take good care of your health this time, otherwise things could turn out very badly for you."

"Thank you so much, Qianhua. And please also thank Ram. He's been so busy with me lately, but don't worry, everything will be fine as long as I'm here."

"I still hope you can go back to how you were before, that would be enough."

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That simple, sunny, and lovable person, all they need is to come back properly so that everyone can truly be well. And after all that hard work and heartache, their thoughts must not be very good.

"Alright, maybe he'll come back."

And so, Xia Yan really left, left quietly, without saying goodbye to anyone, just like that.

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"This is the kind of life I want, free from the disturbances of others, alone, quietly, free from the judgment of the world, and just to be by myself in peace."

The fresh breeze, the natural breeze, brings a sense of wonder. To be honest, I really like it. And for some reason, it makes me feel that this kind of life is very peaceful and serene, which makes me feel very good.

"That's right, that's it. It makes me like it, makes me happy, and makes me want to stay here."

Xia Yan's heart began to flutter. He didn't know what was wrong with him, but he still hoped to integrate into this place and become a member of this community, just like any other member.

Chapter 165 Alienation

Chika and Ram drifted apart due to some events (since Xia Yan left, the feeling between them began to slowly change after they met again).

"This indescribable feeling, I don't know why."

Chika knew that she couldn't distance herself from Ram, but time and time again she waited only to be disappointed. She didn't want to have this kind of relationship with Ram, but every time she looked at her, she felt a sense of inexplicable loss.

He wanted to find Ram and confirm with her what had happened and why things had turned out this way.

"They used to be the closest of friends, but it turned out like this. It's not something anyone would like to hear."

"Don't even mention it. What good will it do to think about these things? If you can't think about them, you probably won't be able to do anything. Let's make a choice first, otherwise, once we go in, this will be the most unpleasant situation."

Experiencing this feeling again was not good, and Xia Yan's heart began to grow cold. He didn't know why things had turned out this way, and naturally decided to leave.

"Ram, can we get rid of these annoying things?"

Chika approached Ram, but Ram said, "Chika, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to."

Ram felt apologetic because he really didn't mean to. He just happened to be passing by and didn't expect to see Chika taking a bath. It was truly unintentional, and the fact that Chika took the initiative to come over at this time made him a little expectant.

Upon hearing Ram's words, Chika realized that this guy had done this before and even boasted about it everywhere. It was truly shameful. Chika then left.

Unexpectedly, things took an increasingly dangerous turn, which was rather unpleasant. Chika seemed even angrier this time, and Ram didn't know what to do.

Ram sighed. He really didn't mean it, but Chika was very angry. He thought Chika had come to make up with him and didn't care. But things turned out this way.

"To be honest, if there's a problem, it's fine; if there isn't, then it's my own problem. I should probably just leave as soon as possible..."

It's just a bit pitiful. She had such a good relationship with Chika, yet she was disliked by someone. What will she do in this situation?

"Let's not talk about this anymore, let's go first."

It's frustrating to not reach the end, but it's also unpleasant to not even get through it.

"Sigh, I still apologize, but I won't mention it again. If I bring it up, the whole world will probably know, and once the whole world knows, my last thought will be to leave as soon as possible."

Ram also decided that he would never mention this matter again, because if he did, he would be in a very bad position.

After Xia Yan returned from sketching, he sensed that the relationship between the two of them had changed. They used to be very close, but now they would walk around ignoring each other. If this continued, it would really be a bit too much.

"What's wrong with you two? This wasn't the case before?"

Xia Yan pulled the two of them together and looked at them. Originally, Xia Yan had gone out because he was in a bad mood, but when he came back and saw that things had turned out like this, he felt a little bad.

Chapter 166 Solving the problem

"It's all over. Who would have thought it would turn out like this?"

Ram also felt that she was in a bad mood, but what could she do? After thinking it over, she decided to let it go. She had gone a bit too far, but it didn't have to be this bad. Besides, it was already quite unpleasant to look at from a distance.

"It's unpleasant, not pleasant at all. Is there really no way to resolve this?"

"There's nothing that can't be resolved. Let's go first, otherwise, it won't be easy for us to talk to them later."

Chika was furious. To her, this was going too far. Since that was the case, she had to escape as soon as possible, otherwise, there would be no way to escape in the end.

"No, it's my fault. I know I was wrong. If you can't forgive me like this, then how can you forgive me?"

"Stop talking nonsense. Let me tell you, the problem is huge. Since that's the case, I have to find a way to solve it."

It's really shameless to think about it.

"Alright, you two, let's not talk about this anymore. No matter what, it's definitely feasible for us."

If the matter between Chika and Ram can't be resolved, the situation will become more complicated, and if this complicated situation continues, it will inevitably cause problems for them as well.

"Don't mention it. There are many problems, but we know that the fault this time is not ours. If we are determined to resolve it, it can be resolved."