chsdbacks Chapter 56
Chapter 56
When Gu Congjue reincarnated in this life, he had two biggest troubles and heart problems.
One is the previous life covenant with Shen Yanxing, and the other is the recognition of the reincarnated world and the reincarnated self.The phrase "who are you and what are you doing" is like a spell, and if it didn't appear once before, he would feel dizzy and forced to "sober" and pull away.
This is like an invisible bondage, restricting Gu Congjue's every move in this world.
At first he thought it was a reminder, a self-declaration telling himself not to forget the past and himself, but later he realized that it was just a bondage.
The so-called "concretization of the subconscious mind" is not a good person who kindly reminds him, but a terrible "inner demon" born under the circumstances of his split personality.
Whenever he wants to take the first step and try to embrace this new world after reincarnation, demons and restraints will jump out and ask him, "Who are you and what are you doing?"
The answer he gave before was: I am a reincarnated person who died in a car accident due to a tragic life experience. I want to find "that person" in this world and fulfill my promise in the previous life.
But this time, Gu Congjue had a different idea and answer.
[Why are not you talking? ]
[Look carefully, who is that person. ]
Unable to stand "his" nagging instructions, Gu Congjue had no choice but to take a closer look.He saw the mangled man with the same face and figure as him. That man fell on the cold ground in winter, even with snow under his body.
The dark red blood spread on the road and snow, covering the black asphalt road even blacker, and dyed the white snow bright red.
The pedestrians who watched the bustle were terrified, retreating and covering their eyes.But no matter how fearful they were, they couldn't stop some people's curiosity-seeking mentality, that is, some people were frightened, and at the same time, they showed curious eyes through their fingers, and kept looking at the lying boy on the ground.
[that is you. ]
[That's the 'real' you. ]
From the perspective of God, Gu Congjue looked at "himself" quietly for a while, and asked, "Is Shen Ai responsible for my death?"
[Yes. ]
"He used me as a money-making gimmick. After squeezing all my use value, he felt that there was no need for me to exist, so he wiped me out?"
[Yes. ]
[Before designing this 'accident', he also bought you a life insurance. ]
"Ah," Gu Congjue was not surprised, "it's something he would do. That's how he is, even if the sponge can't squeeze out any water, he still has to twist it until it's broken, and squeeze out the last drop or two."
[Look at Shen Yanxing. ]
As soon as the screen changed, Shen Yanxing appeared——Shen Yanxing from his previous life.
Shen Yanxing in the previous life was the same as him in the previous life, dusty, although he was beautiful, his temperament was very ordinary.Gu Congjue once thought that Shen Yanxing was unmatched, but after experiencing reincarnation, his idea has been shaken and changed.
Shen Yanxing was still beyond his reach.The only person who can pass Shen Yanxing from his previous life must be Shen Yanxing from this life.
He likes Shen Yan's starry appearance in front of the camera. He has millions of fans at a young age, and is loved and sought after by many, many people.
He thought this was what Shen Yanxing should look like.
But the concretization of the subconscious is very annoying, "he" has been chattering and hypnotizing: [Shen Yanxing is so sad. ]
[It's because you didn't keep the promise that Shen Yanxing is so sad. ]
Gu Congjue sneered.
Reification was annoyed by his sneer: [You don't agree with me? ]
[Do you really think of yourself as the young master of the Gu family? — Do you remember what you said before?Have you forgotten your agreement, your obsession? ]
Gu Cong never said a word.
His silence made "him" even more angry: [Do you want to choose 'this side'?Are you starting to let go of the past? ]
Gu Congjue said softly, "Impossible?"
[You are 'betrayed'! ]
[Who do you think you are?Do you think you can integrate into this world, do you think you have such a 'past', such an 'experience', do they really accept you and like you? ]
[Wake up, you are just a monster from another world! ]
"He" finally showed his face, it was a bloody and shabby appearance, and it was Gu Congjue's appearance in his previous life.
[You are 'I' and 'I' is you.We are one, we are one. ]
Gu Congjue was indifferent, staring at "his" face for a long time, and finally shook his head: "No, you are not.
"You are just a demon, a special 'past' that has always troubled me and prevented me from looking forward."
"He" is not him, but a creation created by his fragmented thoughts under anxiety and fragmentation when he can't integrate and adapt to the new world and is anxious to find the only reliable and reliable candle in the past. Then another person was born.
So, "he" is certainly not him.
[How could I not be you? ] Concretization is very angry, [I am you!You created me - I have you, you have me! ]
"Then go 'die', at least I won't recognize you anymore." Gu Congjue narrowed his eyes dangerously, then raised the corners of his mouth and raised a faint smile, "'You' doesn't even mean my name I don't even know, how could you be me?"
[Name...] The man became confused, his face was full of confusion and incomprehension, [What else can the name mean? ]
"Of course." Gu Congjue's eyes were gentle, and his tone became gentle, "Gu Congjue, Gu Congjue...
"The one who follows, the one who is determined."
His unreliable parents had already told him the password to fight against demons and get out of the shadows of the previous life.
The point is to follow your resolve.
Apart from Shen Yanxing, this determination can also be other things: love, family affection, friendship... The only essence of substituting it is "one's own" - it is one's own determination.
It is not an idea imposed by others, let alone an obsession that restrains him from moving forward.
"I'm going to follow my own determination and will.
"I'm going back—to them."
He has to go back.
He wants to go back to his mother.His mother is a typical example of a knife-mouthed bean curd heart, and anyone can ignore it, but without him, his mother must be the first to cry; Gu Congjue can guess the words for crying, it is nothing more than "" I only have such a son", "I don't want to live without my son", and halfway through the sentence, his father covered his mouth.
He has to go back to his father.His father has a similar personality to him, both of which are not good at words; as the head of the family, his father will definitely not show grief after his accident, because he wants to stabilize the overall situation and prevent the scene from becoming more chaotic.
But not expressing or talking does not mean that he will not be sad; his father must be thinking nervously about what to do?What should I do if my son really has three ups and downs, a good marriage and a happy family?
Rong's mother must be caught in it, and she is so sad that she can't help herself.He just remembered that Rong's mother was a widow who lost her only child. She had experienced the pain of losing her son and husband more than ten years ago, and she had been shrouded in the shadow of "Kezi" and "Kefu" for a long time.
It was his existence and arrival that allowed Mama Rong to recover from her psychological trauma.Rong's mother treated him as her own son, and put him first and thought of him in everything; knowing that he had an accident, Rong's mother must be more sad than anyone else.Such a good, gentle, kind and dedicated mother, how could he have the heart to leave and let Rong's mother experience the pain of losing her son again?
The last one was Shen Yanxing.
He had just made an agreement with Shen Yanxing that when he reached adulthood, he would tell him the secret of rebirth.He failed to keep the promise of the previous life due to an accident, and finally cultivated the fate of the next life. He won't... miss the promise again, right?
No, absolutely not.
"I will no longer stick to the past and be bound by the so-called past life."
Gu Congjue told that "he".
"You're wrong, I didn't choose 'this side', I belonged to this side.
"I didn't abandon Shen Yanxing, I just came to the right world one step ahead of him and waited for him. We were two people who were teased by fate and met on the wrong track; in the 'right' world, I will be safe and smooth , have a happy and complete family, and Shen Yanxing will join me after going through hardships, step onto the shining stage, and start the transformation of life."
They will all be fine.
This is the real, correct, world where he belongs.
"Gone, my previous life. I will remember the discipline and experience that this experience gave me, but I—never will.
"I want to stay in the new world, with people who love me and what I love."
The moment the voice fell, the dark and cold world began to crack and collapse, and even the bloody figure with the same face as him also began to fade and disappear.
The darkness dissipated, and a white light appeared in the center of the screen, blurry.As the brightness got higher and higher, Gu Congjue became less and less able to mature the visual stimulation; he moved his fingers, and felt that the stagnant blood started to flow again, and the heat returned to the stiff and cold limbs.
After struggling twice, he opened his eyes, and what he saw was white and light.
It was the blinding lights on the operating table.
"Open your eyes, the wounded, open your eyes!
"The heart rate of the injured has also returned to normal—rescue is back!"
The white, warm world, the pungent but unexpectedly safe smell of disinfectant, and doctors wearing masks.
This situation is very similar to when Gu Congjue was born, experiencing this "unique" world for the first time.
The door of the operating room was opened, and the doctor, sweating profusely, told the family members that "the operation went well, the injured are out of danger, and now they have been transferred to the general nursing ward to sleep", Xiang Yuyan was so excited that he wanted to kneel down to the doctor on the spot!
"Wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooh, this operation was a success..." that is, Gu Pingyue hugged him. Jinqi, I want to thank them for saving my son!"
"Send, must send." Gu Pingyue also heaved a sigh of relief, and his mood that had been heavy all afternoon was finally relieved and relaxed when night came. He's doing well."
"I love him too!" Xiang Yuyan sniffed, "Don't I just like to call him a little trash and a pig? It's not sincere...why do you treat me like this? "
Yang Cuirong was also relieved a lot, panting heavily on the way to the ward.Maybe it's because her heartbeat hasn't calmed down yet, but she's still a little uneasy: "But the doctor didn't stop talking, saying that Young Master Sun hurt his head, isn't it guaranteed that he will have mental problems?
"Master Sun is such a smart person, what if a car accident makes him act stupid..."
Shen Yanxing was also worried about this as he supported Mama Rong.
From Shen Yanxing's point of view, being stupid is secondary, what he fears most is what happened in the Goofy TV series: Gu Congjue has lost his memory, he has completely forgotten about him.
He felt that he was a little selfish, and he was still struggling with his youthful feelings at this time.But he hasn't formally declared his love to Gu Congjue. He originally wanted to confess his love to Gu Congjue. If Gu Congjue loses his memory and forgets about him, what will he do?
What about the agreement between him and Gu Congjue, won't it count?
When he came to the ward, Gu Congjue lay quietly on the hospital bed, with his eyes closed and infused with fluid.During the operation, the doctor simply cleaned and disinfected the wound, so Gu Congjue did not have the blood-stained head that frightened people as he did before the operation.
He just lay there quietly, wearing a light green hospital gown, his lips and face were frighteningly pale.If the heart rate monitor on the side was not still beating, Xiang Yuyan, Yang Cuirong and others would have been frightened again.
"Oh, my son..." Xiang Yuyan sat down on the side of the hospital bed for the first time, touched the son's icy face, "why are you wearing this ugly hospital gown again? Last time I was ruined by the glass. When I was hurt, I told you to pay attention, don't wear this dress again, why don't you pay attention!"
When doctors perform surgery, cleaning is mainly to clean the wound and prevent infection, and they don't pay attention to it.When Xiang Yuyan looked closely at the cub's face, he could still see traces of blood that hadn't been wiped clean.
"Your face is still dirty, you're so dirty!" Xiang Yuyan washed his nose and waved to Yang Cuirong who was behind him, "Sister Rong, you, you go and get a basin of hot water, and I'll give him Wipe your face.
"It didn't hurt my face, otherwise I would have wasted my genes and Congjue's!"
Xiang Yuyan lowered his head and wiped his face, wiped away his tears, and suddenly saw the bastard's fingers move, as if trying to grab something.
"Congjue!" Shen Yanxing reacted the fastest and shouted in surprise, "Is Congjue about to wake up?"
Gu Congjue was indeed about to wake up - he was woken up by his naughty mother.
That is to say, how can there be such a mother in the world?The son was lying on the hospital bed and fell asleep, and he didn't forget to slap his mouth with a knife and babbled endlessly.
"Mom..." He couldn't fully open his eyes, so he could only move his lips first, and shouted in an obscure voice, "You..."
Shen Yanxing, Xiang Yuyan and others are more anxious than him!Seeing him open his mouth, he hurried forward to ask.
"Do you remember who we are?"
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Zai: ... want to run away from home again.